| what am i doing? |
[Dec. 22nd, 2009|11:01 am] |
im just treading water
waiting until my limbs ache
waiting until they burn with uselessness
waiting until i go limp, and sink.
sink down.
let it surround me
engulf me
envelop.
"stop pushing," they say
"its useless."
i want to believe them.
i want to fit in.
i want to become invisible
to disappear into the crowd
to be forgotten
have no distinct feature
no unique quality.
theres a weight inside my chest
like a fist, pushing forward.
like a rope around my throat
holding me back
caged beast
a majestic, breathtaking beast
one whos spirit
is unmatched
one who has been tamed
one who has been "domesticated"
one who struggles
against what?
them
they
the others
out there.
declaration:
i will not
will not
not ever
ever give up
on what lies ahead
its the only thing
we have
to look forward to
cheers,
to good today
and a better tomorrow |
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[Dec. 19th, 2009|09:16 am] |
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I don't know how Ryan & I went from HATING twilight with a fierce passion, to being this obsessed with it. It all happened so quickly, and I just don't know what to do!!!
It all started as a joke, I pwomise! A trip to a Redbox, Ryan laughing hysterically at his movie choice, refusing to disclose what he picked with me. And then, once I finally caved, we watched it (expecting to be like "rofl, this sux, gross, bloodsuckerzzz, lmao"). Now we have all the books, saw the first movie, went to see the second movie, then BOUGHT the first movie (it was part of my Christmas gift, but Ryan was too eager to see it again, so he gave it to me early), and have already watched it again! EVEN WATCHED THE EXTRAS!?! We reference characters in the book in our everyday lives, discuss what's going on in the chapters we're currently reading, and idk if this information should be shared, but Ryan frequently googles Taylor Lautner :P
I understand if, once reading this, you decide never to speak to me again.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS WRONG WITH US?!?! |
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[Dec. 15th, 2009|01:18 pm] |
those little things that will make you successful in life, that will secure your health, your happiness, your fulfillment, your dreams, are simple, subtle, tiny things that nobody will see, nobody will applaud, nobody will even notice. they are those things that, at the time you do them, often feel like they make absolutely no difference...like they dont matter.
they do. |
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